Don't need another perfect line

Lyrics | One Republic lyrics - Secrets lyrics

I decided today that I am tired of waiting for things to happen. I think to increase the probability of something happening, we actually have to force and put ourselves in situations that makes it impossible for meaningful things to evade us.

Yes, in the back of my mind I think my life is boring. And I just can't stand it any longer.

We have to increase our potential, put the seed of life under the sun and rain so that it'll grow into full bloom.

That is why I am taking the little but sure steps toward change.

People around me are always whining about how sad and blue they are because of the absence of someone they could love and they think that their life would be turned around the minute they find their true love.

I just hope they don't miss him when he pass them by. Good luck with that.

For me I just get sick of waiting around pretending it doesn't hurt. I don't think that one person can change your whole life just like that, you have to do most of the work yourself. Well, it is after all your life. Don't wait around for something that is hidden in the days to come. If it comes one fine day knocking on your door, just let it in. Until then, fill in your minutes and seconds with memories that will sustain you.

Sick of all the insincere is true. I only have time for the real thing. So if you want to join me, I really appreciate the company. But if not, it's OK as it is not the end of the world yet. I promise I'll send you pictures haha.

So now the important things to do are:

• Fill weekday with work so that I can graduate as soon as possible to be free of all the ties of postgraduate study.
• Fill weekends with fun stuff to catch up with my life.
• Earn money so that I can save up to go places I only go to in pictures.

Sound like a good plan? I hope so because the situation now has a stale taste to it. Dreams have to become targets at some point of time and there is no time like the present ;)

Kinda like love

Hope is hard to kill. But it sure drains you out...

It's just another lemon tree

Lyrics | Fool's Garden lyrics - Lemon Tree lyrics

This song has been in my head for a week now.

Plus, the story sounds so awfully familiar.

And I guess I just keep on wondering, hoping that something will finally happen.

Or maybe,

just maybe,

I'll change my point of view and go find my own blue blue sky,

... with the lemon tree still in view, just in case you come ;)

Monster in the mirror

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Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you

~Friedrich Nietzsche

When I came across this quotation before I didn't really understand it. However, recent unfolding of events made me think of this quote and understand it more than ever before.

I am now very very frustrated with someone. In my rebel against this person's conduct I think I have become a worse person. This person is truly uninspiring and I am sick of the attitude problem that seem to get worse everyday. Compound all this with the fact that this person is wayyy older than I am and I think that this person should have known better. As I view this person's life through my tainted vision, I don't see any bright future or even a glimmer of success because in my heart I think that this person would pass over all the opportunities to the wind and be left barren.

However, my rebel toward this person couldn't be done in face to face combat so I resorted to passive aggressiveness without realizing it. I started withdrawing my participation, delaying any response, procrastinate the execution of responsibilities tasked on me: basically developing a chronic attitude disorder of my own. I started slowly to become the things I hate. Angels can't win in the clash of monstrous creatures and so that was what I slowly turning into.

But like a jolt of electrocution I was stunned into realization this morning. It dawned on me that there is no use trying to change people when they are beyond that. It is not my responsibility to see this person through or support this person in their flimsy illusion. There is no use being rebellious of things that will not change. Change can only come from within and trying to force it would only make us be like the things we attempt to change.

What is in your power is yourself. If they do not want to be the person they should have been, there is no reason to follow in their path to nowhere. I have to fulfill what is required of me because what I become in the end is my own devising. Blame is lame.

So what I have to do now is make a major U-turn and reset my course. I'll do my part beautifully and those who won't can just get lost in their solitary universe. I vow to NEVER BE LIKE THAT PARTICULAR PERSON.

If I delay, success will become wed to another

“I will act now. I will act now. I will act now. Henceforth, I will repeat these words each hour, each day, everyday, until the words become as much a habit as my breathing, and the action which follows becomes as instinctive as the blinking of my eyelids. With these words I can condition my mind to perform every action necessary for my success. I will act now. I will repeat these words again and again and again. I will walk where failures fear to walk. I will work when failures seek rest. I will act now for now is all I have. Tomorrow is the day reserved for the labor of the lazy. I am not lazy. Tomorrow is the day when the failure will succeed. I am not a failure. I will act now. Success will not wait. If I delay, success will become wed to another and lost to me forever. This is the time. This is the place. I am the person.”

~Og Mandino (American Essayist and Psychologist, 1923-1996)

I have to recite this to myself every moment of every day so that I'll be focused and not be so easily swayed by transient escape.

This going after one's goals is a challenging ordeal that will shake you to your core. It is tiring and taxing to everything.

I don't know. It may very well be true that I am simply just a weak person that I easily get tired and demoralized. But hey, I haven't quit and I want to see this through to the end.

I'll see you guys at the top! Make sure you're there too ;)

The world is too big to be stuck in one place

I should like to spend the whole of my life in traveling abroad, if I could anywhere borrow another life to spend afterwards at home ~William Hazlitt

I'm so jealous I could cry...

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Bloghopping has brought me to this. The blog owner is an old friend of mine, known her since primary school. She and her husband are photographers and before they went on to UK they have a photography service (all the details you can find on their blog). The pictures thay take are truly breathtaking, it makes me want to go to the places showcased in their pictures then and there. Alas, that is but a dream ~ :(

But looking at those beautiful pictures almost brought me to tears due to jealousy. It's not the green eyed monster-envy-I'm-gonna-get-there-someday but the more mellow oh-i-don't-think-I'll-ever-get-there kind of jealousy.

I am sadly an avid dream traveler. I like to travel but don't seem to get the chance to. I don't crave the constant adventure or the constant moving, but rather I want to see and feel the world in its entirety. I want to see beauty in every perspective. I want to stand in silence in the face of wonder. I want to drink it all in.

Someday when all the mess has settled maybe I can just pack up and go. But sometimes I fear it is going to be too late. However, fear has never gotten anybody anywhere worthwhile, so maybe the thing to do is to just do it and see what'll happen. I suspect that life has many things left in store for me ;)

Cool woman wisdom

Jennifer Cavalieri: You look stupid and rich.

Oliver Barrett IV: Well, what if I'm smart and poor?

Jennifer Cavalieri: *I'm* smart and poor.

Oliver Barrett IV: Well what makes you so smart?

Jennifer Cavalieri: I wouldn't go out for coffee with you that's what.

Oliver Barrett IV: Well what if I wasn't even gonna ask you to go out for coffee with me?

Jennifer Cavalieri: Well that's what makes you stupid.

~From movie, Love Story 1970

:) That's simple woman wisdom for you. The reasons we come out with for anything is truly fascinating and frustrating at the same time.

I wish I can come out with cool comebacks like that: malas lah asyik terkena saja kn? Haha