Have you ever felt that you have said too much?
I am by nature, a quiet person. It is not that I don't have anything to say [quite the contrary..actually hehe] but somehow I just don't talk that much, except, perhaps to those close to me.
Lately, I feel like I said too much.
I feel like a big balloon full of air with the opening just closed between the fingers and not tied. Suddenly the fingers closing the outlet let go of the balloon and there I was, flying here and there, making so much noise but then eventually I slumped down, out of air. Nothing left in me. What's left is just a piece of colored rubber...
Hmm...why?
Maybe because these few weeks that have passed seem like a waste to me. I didn't get much work done as much as I like to.
Maybe these are the after effects of taking things too easily?
Gotta get my game on!
When Dr Teh asked me to change my method last week, she said

"Dah lama dah puasa, dah sampai masa makan besar"

[or something along those lines...I can't actually remember her exact words..]
Initially I was struck dumb, I didn't get it at first. Then Prof Zaki said,

"Wah, Dr Teh dah pandai berkias-kias sekarang"

Me===> Huh? Kias?

Then I got it, I think she was saying that I have not being productive lately, so I was fasting [puasa] in terms of my productivity and the time has come for me to finally have my makan besar [big fest].

Aiya....so slow la me sometimes...
I thought makan besar for me is like a reward or something..haha, so much for false hopes.
So I have to pull myself together and gotta have those RESULTS!

How true!

These are some quotes I found while surfing, thought it would b lovely to share it with you ;)

Tell a man there are 300 billion stars in the universe and he'll believe you. Tell him a bench has wet paint on it and he'll have to touch it to be sure. ~Murphy's Law

The man who says he is willing to meet you halfway is usually a poor judge of distance. ~Author Unknown

The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy a replacement. ~Author Unknown

No one is listening until you fart. ~Author Unknown

All my life, I always wanted to be somebody. Now I see that I should have been more specific. ~Jane Wagner, The Search For Intelligent Life In The Universe, performed by Lily Tomlin

It's always darkest before the dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it. ~Author Unknown

When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car.

Love your enemies. It makes them so damned mad. ~P.D. East

Time is a great teacher, but unfortunately it kills all its pupils ... - Louis Hector Berlioz

The early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese. ~Author Unknown

Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile way and you have their shoes. ~Author Unknown

"If at first you don't succeed... So much for skydiving." - Henry Youngman.

Who says nothing is impossible. I've been doing nothing for years. ~Author Unknown

Protect me from knowing what I don't need to know. Protect me from even knowing that there are things to know that I don't know. Protect me from knowing that I decided not to know about the things that I decided not to know about. Amen. ~Douglas Adams, Mostly Harmless

Lord, lord, lord. Protect me from the consequences of the above prayer. ~Douglas Adams, Mostly Harmless

Current events have spurred me to re-post another article from my friendster blog... :(

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sorry...that is a word that symbolizes regret. regret follows us like a lurking shadow, ready to pounce on us when feelings of guilt overpowers our hearts.
I always wondered, why am i stupid enough to do the things i did. some of the things i did, i think took stupidity to a new level.
regret happens when the things that we thought we did right was in fact totally wrong and suddenly the cascade of events that ensues spun out of our hands, totally out of our control. then we could only look at the things that result from our stupidity with our mouths gaping open, our head disbelieving everything and our hearts hoping that it won't get worse than it already is. sadly, it always did.
so how could we prevent this from happening again?
with all that we did wrong, i think we should have some hindsight (meaning: Perception of the significance and nature of events AFTER they have occurred). In short, we should analyze ourselves every time. I think it's best to analyze both the good times and the bad times so that we know what makes it good and also what would mess everything up.
Then, after that we should try to use all the results from our self-analysis or self- assessment to have more foresight (meaning: Perception of the significance and nature of events BEFORE they have occurred).
this way, i think we could avoid from falling into the same pitfall of life over and over again.
i think we could learn not to be like the fly that tried to go out the car window. every time the fly tried to go out, it smashed its head on the invisible glass. i think the fly does not know that there is such thing as glass that act as an invisible barrier because it could see the world outside just on the other side...pity..how could something so close be so far...ok, back to the fly, i think that if the fly took some time to reflect on the whole situation, it would realize that something is terribly wrong. then, maybe it would try to think of another way to tackle the problem.
with a little bit more time n patience, the fly probably would b free if it tried hard enough. but if it stopped trying, then it would only die a useless death.
what a waste of life.