Sama tak serupa

Assalamualaikum
Hari ni dah 10 Ramadhan, tinggal 20 hr je lagi sebelum Ramadhan meninggalkn kita.
Moga2 Ramadhan kali ni bermanfaat :)
Semalam berbuka puasa dengan ayam tandoori n roti nan..hehe, teringin sungguh semalam. Memang best!
Plan asal ialah beli nasi kari, tapi tukar fikiran last minute.
Semalam hajat Lili nak makan tau fu fa kt pasar sec6 x tercapai, pakcik soya tu xde. Tapi, bertentangan dengan tempat pakcik soya tu ada gerai jual kuih yg goreng2 mcm jemput-jemput, cempedak goreng n mungkin juga pisang goreng (x nampak pun pisang semalam, tp mcm patut ada je kt gerai mcm tu kn hehe---educated guess la konon).
Bau cempedak goreng mmg sangat menggoda...terus terasa mcm ade tarikan magnet ke gerai tu. Lagipun x ramai sangat dah orang sebab masa tu da lewat, so pegilah beli.
Sampai kt meja gerai tu, ada 2 talam yang besar. Satu ngan label 4 biji rm2.00 (yang dalam talam ni saiz besar skit) dan satu lagi rm 2.00 5 biji (saiznya secara relatif lebih kecil).
Tanpa berfikir panjang order, "Bang, saya nak yang besar ni rm 2.00."
Dapat la 4 biji. Happy gila! Hahahahahahaha
Malam tu masa berbuka makan la sebiji...pastu hairan, apsal cempedak ni isi die sangat tebal? Pastu terfikir yang, wah, bagusnya isi die tebal, sangat berbaloi!
Kak Liza n Lili pun makan, tapi xde ape2 komen pun.
Then masa sahur makan la sebiji yang last...tiba2 terfikir lagi..apsal la isi cempedak ni macam tebal n lain skit. Pastu mula la belek-belek n perhatikan struktur kuih yang sedang dimakan (saintis la katakan...huhuhu). Tiba- tiba tergelak besar, Lili pun terkejut. Ya Allah, rupanya bukan cempedak, tapi nangka! Wakakaka cempedak sudah menjadi nangka! Or lebih kepada nangka disangka cempedak?
Boleh tak, lansung x sedar yang dari semalam tu memang makan nangka, boleh plak hairan2 sendiri.
Memang lansung x perasan, ye la, bau goreng semalam cempedak (suspek utama: yang saiz kecik 5 rm2.00 tu!) tapi terbeli nangka plak.
Itu la, kadang2 apa yang kita nak, kita tak dapat.
Semalam makan nangka tu, sedap aje. Memang tip top xde masalah.
Jadi, kadang2 kita dapat benda bukan lah yang seperti kita minta, tapi mungkin itu lebih baik untuk kita.
Kalau x belek, mmg xkan perasan sebab rasanya sedap juga. Bukan cempedak je yang sedap.
Oleh sebab itu, janganlah asyik bertanya: "kenapa aku x dapat yang itu?"
Kena yakin pada Allah, pastilah apa yang kita dapat sekarang adalah yang sebenar- benarnya takdir kita. Diberi-Nya perkara2 yang akan membawa kita lebih dekat padaNya. Apa yang terbaik untuk kita bukanlah semuanya kesenangan, lagipun, kalau tidak diuji, mana kita tau nilai kita sebenarnya?
Sekarang ni, memang senang untuk mempersoalkan banyak perkara, tapi apa gunanya? Akhirnya apa yang ada padaku memang nangka, selamanya tidak akan jadi cempedak. Buang ke tanah pun, kalau tumbuh jadi pokok nangka. Takkan nyer die mutate jadi pokok cempedak pulak.
Apa- apa hal pun, sangat happy dengan nangka tu, xpe la x dapat cempedak pun. Maybe next time ;)

Window to one's soul

People say that eyes are the window to the soul..they say that if you look into someone's eyes long and deep enough, it'd reveal the person's true self.

Through time, the most effective communication medium would have to be talking face to face. Because communication is just so much more than empty words, it has to be substantiated by gestures, emotions and also assessment of reaction when posed with an action.

God help us in this world today where people no longer need to see each other to talk. Why bother? We have our emails, our chatboxes, our handphones, our letters. You could be stuck in your house for a whole year in front of the computer using the internet, surviving only on online deliveries but you'd still be considered "connected".

This is the reason why miscommunication is becoming more common everyday.

When some of the essential elements of communication are missing, it cease to be a full reality. It is more of a fantasy and misconceptions. Because, you see, when these elements are lacking, then the human mind would try and attempt to fill those gaps by imagining what the other person looks like, what that person is feeling, what that person is thinking. Majority of the population are rushing, heading the wrong way fast. This is all because communication has no pressing need for the human touch.

Do you ever notice that words in sms could be read in a different tone and it sends a whole different message altogether?

The way the person interpret our message without the necessary visual cues and signals is not in our control. That is totally in that person's control. So as you very well know, when the mind roam free it would be guided by emotions and preconceptions. Eventually the mind would reach a conclusion, but often this conclusion is way off target. It is almost always wrong.
What is worse is that when the mind comes to a conclusion that the mind thought up by itself, it wouldn't budge. It is hard to change once the mind is made up. We still think it is true even though there is no hard evidence to back that claim.

I agree that the ability to draw conclusion out of nothing at all is sometimes necessary when we are facing new situations, new problems. We way we act when faced with something we never encountered before would be dictated by our past experiences, our sentiments, our emotional state at the time, our level of knowledge and education, our desires, our fears and our conscience. All of these factors would have an influence on our actions. It would determine whether you'd stay or go away? Would you hide away or face it head on? Would you stop or keep going?

......But I think that it is not wise to always follow blindly a generalization made by your mind. Keep your mind and heart open for the remote possibility that this time, this one time it would be different. Give that person a chance to prove his/her worth.

However, when you discover that all is not what it seem to be, do not dwell there a second longer, move on, start over. But don't shut down your mind and heart, who knows, the next time it would be different? ;)
Have faith people!

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Decisions..decisions...What is life without them anyway? In the end, you would be held responsible for your choices. Even in the afterlife, you'd still be asked about your choices.
Why you did that and not this? Why'd you take a left when you could have taken a right? Why'd you choose wrong when you could choose right?
It is not whether you could, but rather a question of whether you would.

Dugaan Nya

Dugaan Nya by Hujan

Bapanya mahukannya jadi seorang askar,
bukan cita-citanya,
bukan impiannya.

Dia terlalu muda tuk tinggalkan keluarga,
bila tiba masanya,
pilu mula terasa.

Berkecamuk hati,hatinya sendiri,
persoalannya kini,sampai bila mampu ku bertahan,
mampukah ku bertahan?

wowo,
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.
wowo,
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.

Beginikah selalunya cinta,
diakhiri sengsara,
setelah dicurahkan semua.

Cuba ku dalami,
sampai termimpi mimpi,
namun apa yang ku jumpa,
semuanya sama.

Berkecamuk hati,hatinya sendiri,
persoalannya kini,sampai bila mampu ku bertahan,
mampukah ku bertahan?

wowo,
nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.
wowo,
nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.

Ini semua dugaan Nya,(2X)

This is currently my fav song. I can identify with the guy in this song...
Can I hold on much longer? coz right now, letting go seem to be more and more desirable...
Sometimes being strong is soooooo tiring.
It's good to know that when we let go, there's something waiting for us at the bottom to break the fall. Coz if there is nothing there, I would fall hard on my face and never get up again.
Imagine, pieces of my brain laced with fresh red blood lying everywhere...gory sight.
So I better not let go.
Hold on!
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Why does lately my posts depict love?
Coz I'm losing faith in it.
So, to restore the faith, I have to remind myself that love is bigger than all of us put together.
If you hope for love, ask from the One that owns love.
The problem is that we keep asking from people things that they could never give.
Ask from the One that has it all.
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Yesterday I watched a Korean movie, "Old maid diaries"
[as opposed to the princess diaries..hehe]
Seriously, I fear that there may be a chance that I could end up like the heroine...an old maid.
Coz what happened to her keep happening to me too.

Beginikah selalunya cinta,
diakhiri sengsara,
setelah dicurahkan semua.

Cuba ku dalami,
sampai termimpi mimpi,
namun apa yang ku jumpa,
semuanya sama.

All are the same...no different.
Doesn't matter...

Ini semua dugaan Nya

This is what I believe.
Yeah, I know, stupid for wanting something like this.
Yeah, I know, you'll only tell me that it is only natural..part of being a person.
But I don't want to want something that I can never have. Got to get a grip.
Reality is all me.
....(however, the ground seem unreal sometimes)

Pergilah perasaan
Tinggalkan tubuhku kosong
bagai angkasa yang tiada berudara...

I leave you with that to ponder.