No such thing as lucky

Do you believe there is such thing as coincidence? Luck?
I don't.
I used to but now I don't as I've thought about it for a while.
Yeah...I am one of those people that need to believe that everything happens for a reason and that what I am doing is somehow significant.
Too idealistic?
hmm..why not?
Do you seriously believe that the sun just "coincidentally" rise every morning after the moon?
Or that the food you ate just "coincidentally" digested itself from the complex and jumbled up mixture of chemicals to ultimately give you the strength to survive?
Seriously, if you know what's going on in your body, you'd be surprised that you survived at all if you applied the theory of coincidence to the basic function of digestion or breathing.
I think that to assume that everything is "coincidental" is quite a long shot, even impossible to the logical mind.
Ok, c'mon. Let us think about it a sec.
As an example, let's take something that we do everyday: eating.
Here you are, all ready to gobble up a heavenly delicious Prosperity burger from McD. You look at it, admiring the beef dripping with black pepper sauce and your sense of smell is taking up the aroma. All this while, your brain and other parts of your body is already working to respond to the burger (activating your saliva glands, releasing feel-good hormones, activating the move of your muscles etc.) and you haven't even eaten it yet!
Then when you've finally taken a bite, only God knows just how many processes and reactions are taking place in your body in a concerted way. It's like the ultimate orchestra. All of the processes are done by molecules that seem to know what they're supposed to do with the burger bite in order to turn it into something useful for the body.
Is it a coincidence that the right enzymes and molecules are released to deal with the burger? If we apply the theory of probability, then everything has a probablity to happen. There are an estimated 75,000 human enzymes in the body (according to wikianswers..yeah, I know. Very scientific :p) so every enzyme have a 1 in 75,000 chance to be excreted. But because there are other cues from the body to signal which are the right enzymes to be excreted, then digestion enzymes are excreted to deal with the burger, not growth enzymes or enzymes that trigger an allergic reaction (is there anyone allergic to a burger?).
But where does the cues come from?
Where does the cues for the cues come from?
Where does the cues for the cues for the cues come from?
And so on.
The human mind is so weak that it couldn't even have the answer to a simple event like reaction of the body toward a burger.
Ultimately, you have to believe that there is something greater than all of us. Something that reaches far beyond than what we even hope to imagine.
With knowledge, you can't help but rethink your existence. Be thankful that you're even alive today when so much things could go wrong.

p/s: Don't go further than you can, it'd make you crazy just thinking about it. Just leave it to the Almighty. Just take what you can handle, the others let it be ;)

I will seek my own

I appeal from your customs. I must be myself. I cannot break myself any longer for you, or you. If you can love me for what I am, we shall be the happier. If you cannot, I will still seek to deserve that you should. I will not hide my tastes or aversions. I will so trust that what is deep is holy, that I will do strongly before the sun and moon whatever inly rejoices me, and the heart appoints. If you are noble, I will love you; if you are not, I will not hurt you and myself by hypocritical attentions. If you are true, but not in the same truth with me, cleave to your companions; I will seek my own.

Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803 - 1882)

Mountain of work

slm :)
it's been awhile since I've wrote anything here.
I'm busy nowadays, climbing the gigantic mountain of work and racing for time.
Even the reason I am able to write anything now is because I am currently waiting for my real-time PCR to finish (maybe it'll be finished at 11.00 p.m).
I wish it could be faster...I wish I were faster.
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This Saturday I'll be meeting with Aishah, from Sabah. It is not often that she came down here so I'm taking this opportunity to catch up and be updated about each other lives'.
After my friends and I went our separate ways after graduation, the simple act of saying "hello" seem so hard to do. It's like life is so full of other things that it takes a great amount of effort and determination to keep in touch. We are all so caught up in the rapid flow of life that things that should be important (like family and friends) seem like a blur and all that we can say as we see it pass by is "sorry I can't make it, I have so much work to do" and just watch helplessly as they went on with their own lives without you in it.
Well, what did you expect? Who are we to make them wait?