No more drama

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No More Drama - Mary J. Blige

A heavy heart weighs down your mind.
The dominant emotion now is: Bored.
Bored with all the soap-opera drama.
Bored with people getting all hyped over insignificant things.
Bored with people "merajuk" and expect me to go and apologize.
Bored with people getting irrational and irate over nothing.
Bored with hypocritical people.
Bored with simple minded people.
Bored with mediocrity.
Bored with unfairness.
Bored with boring people.
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My colour now is: blue black. Like the sores after a fight.

Why? because I think I have other important things that should have my utmost attention. My family and my PhD.
I miss my family, the precious times lost to stupid things.
I even miss my extended family and the gaths that I was unable to attend.
Know this: I carry all of you in my heart. Because it's from all of you I get my strength. Without you, I'll be what I really am: an afraid, cowardly, weak person.
and for my PhD, if you were a person I'd say, "Hold on please, let all of these drama pass first then I'll be with you again".
I want to do my work in peace!

All other things, please step aside.

p/s: Don't worry people. This blog is like a trash can. This is where I dump all the rubbish bugging my mind. I'm ok ;)

Rosalina

Ever googled your own name?
Haha. I have, just because I was bored.
I've found many songs about Rosalina, all singing about how much they love me hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
I wish.

Njoy! Keep me in your hearts ya ;)

-This one's my favourite although I don't understand a word he's singing

Rosalina - Fabio Concato

-Another one. This one makes me think of Africa. I don't know why.

Rosalina - The Upbeat

-This is another song about Rosalina that I don't understand. But it has some kind of raggae feel to it hehe (some pf the lyrics sond to me like: OooOOo Rosalina nak gado :p)

rosalina - Anslom

-This video even has lyrics. It's in some kind of Indonesian diaelect. I don't understand, but hey, they're singing about a girl named Rosalina :)


Rosalina - ADC Voices

-Hahahaha, at last! A song that I could understand. Hehe, sweet, but kinda slow for me

Complicated

When something is so complicated, what do you do?
Do you go angry at that thing for being so complicated that you couldn't figure it out? Do you go around and say: "You are too complicated, it is your fault. I wont waste my time anymore with you" ?
Haha.
Funny are those with simplistic minds. Something so big can't be fit into something so small. Open up! Be free of your ideals. Let them guide you, careful not to be trapped by them.

If in my line of work I adhere to this line of thinking, I'd quit in no time. Abstract and complex situations in nature won't bow to old concepts. Everyday is a challenge, don't let your mind trap you into thinking that something should follow a predetermined set of rules: "It is supposed to like this, suppose to be like that, shouldn't be like this, shouldn't act like that...yada yada yada"
Remember, you are just one insignificant person: you can not thrust your ideals into someone else because what you consider right might not be so for other. Don't be so egoistic.
Do not be afraid of change. The world won't stop just because you can't catch up.
Celebrate the differences in each of us because that is what makes each of us unique. I won't change myself for your sake.
Dynamics is the order of the world. Everything moves in motion. Change is the only constant.
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I've been stuck at a certain point of my research for over a year now. Yes, it is complicated. But will the PCR simplify itself for me? Will the reagents realize how much effort I've given the method and sympathize? The answer is a flat no. But that doesn't stop me, I'm going to figure it out. Somehow. I don't know how, but I'd try. Try until there's nothing left of me.
Like Sha said to me, "You sure you've done everything? Everything?"
I can't honestly say I did. I don't sleep in the lab, I don't dedicate all the 24hours of my life for this particular problem. In truth, I admit that I've not given it my everything. So I have no excuse: I have to keep trying.

...And then we wait.