Dare to rise and fly

If you are sad, do you look up or do you look down to lift your spirits up again?

Maybe the answer is the same with what you think of whether a glass is half full or half empty.

For me myself, it is not fixed. Sometimes all I see is a glass filled with something, not caring about the volume.

Well, something is better than nothing right?

Some people, especially the motivated and competitive ones would usually lift themselves up after looking up: see something not yet within their reach, striving to grab at it. Or seeing someone getting more than them, makes the drive to succeed stronger.

Another type of people would feel better when they see that the state they are in are not worse than others i.e looking down and that makes them thankful for what they have and sometimes it makes them strive harder too.

But there is another type I think: the ones that are oblivious of what other people around them have or don't have. These people have a benchmark that defined uniquely by them, a target made solely based on their priorities. Most of the time this target is to overcome self; to be better than thyself in the past. You yourself is the biggest critic. However, you also have to be your biggest fan or else what you end up doing is just clobbering yourself down and be your own worst enemy. Balance people, the keyword is balance!

But, the question that arises is what if what makes us down is out of our control? Maybe it is a person that is bugging you so much that it makes you want to tear your hair out or an unlucky chain of events that spiraled out of hand.

Maybe, just maybe it would be better for the preservation of our sanity that we retain some ability to pull ourselves up without requiring too much. Don't be too affected by the things revolving around us and at the same time not being too cold towards it either. The only thing we have control over is the way we react to things, how we conduct ourselves when faced with tough decisions, tough situations, tough people. The important thing is to keep moving, even at a snails pace. You would still be in front of those standing still, ever closer to your target.

So I think I'll leave you with something to think about:

Time is swift, it races by; Opportunities are born and die... Still you wait and will not try - A bird with wings who dares not rise and fly

~A. A. Milne

The opposite of two

What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you. ~Richard Wilbur

There is nobody in the house, they've all gone out somewhere. Initially I planned to dine with my labmates but they were held up at the lab; they have an important discussion with our supervisor. As my tummy was grumbling all sorts of music, I had to go grab a bite and left. I switched to plan B, which was to buy eggs and just cook up something very basic and oh-so-single like an egg sandwich. But then as I pulled my car beside the shop, the hawker stalls lining the opposite side of the street was so inviting that I didn't even resist the temptation. Naturally I switched to plan C: buy food and be the true bachelorette ;)

I bought nasi lemak ayam berempah and 5 sticks of satay (no comments please, I told you I didn't even resist! haha) and it made me happy. Yes, just like that I was happy. As Fazleen always say; "hee..easily pleased!". Ah well, I sure don't need much to put a smile on my face, that is for sure :) But alongside that happiness, I was also kinda sad due to the loneliness of having to buy your own food and eating silently in front of the TV. Maybe because I am so used to eating with the whole family that dining alone is a sharp contrast.

This is the reason why I hate eating on my own, I'd rather not eat. During Samarahan days, I'd wait up for Fizah to come to my room before buying food and eating together afterwards. She'd make fun of me and say, "haha, kesiannya die xde kawan nk ajak makan." Cis kn? But I don't mind, it was my luck that I got a room separated from my friends. Nasib la Fizah sanggup juga layan aku makan, u r the best! If u r a guy I swear I'd marry you hahaha

And so here I am, in front of the tv, blogging nonsense while gathering the will to do some work after this. Gotta keep moving!

You could get by without me, but...

I don't know about my love philosophy now. As other parts of my life is as complicated as this love section, it helps to simplify things. Now I am all about song dedications. How I play the field now is like Mr A-Z sang in this song:

Lyrics | Jason Mraz lyrics - You And I Both lyrics

Somehow, this gives me peace of mind. Of course, we had a great time. If there is something more there then I'm prepared to give it a try. But if there is nothing worth taking chance on, then I'd just tip my hat to say thank you with a smile and walk away without any grudges. And if I have the option to give another song then I'll give this too, just for fun haha :D

Lyrics | Jason Mraz lyrics - Geek In The Pink lyrics