Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu
Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada
Sapardi Djoko Damono (sasterawan Indonesia)
Lembut bahasanya... Sebenarnya tak perlu pada kata-kata dashyat atau berlebih-lebihan. Kata-kata yang mudah namun sarat dengan makna pasti lebih senang difahami dan diingati.
Puisi ini seperti membawa makna yang sedih namun indah. Cinta yang tak terluahkan, hanya mampu ditanggap oleh yang mahu mengambil waktu sebentar dari hidup untuk meneliti sekelilingnya: kadang-kadang apa yang tidak nampak nyata tidak semestinya tiada. . . . Yesterday I watched the movie Definitely, Maybe (2008). I really think that a decent regular funny guy like Will Hayes (Ryan Reynolds) would really be heaven sent ;)
Who is more affected by a heartbreak? Who is more immune to rejected affection? Who could bear the humiliation of placing your heart on the hands of others only to watch it being thrown away, stomped upon as if it is of no value?
Does being a girl or a boy would make a difference?
I think it doesn't. If you're broken, then you're shattered until you heal. The rate of you healing would depend on how much have you gambled with your one shot of finding a place in their hearts.
I always thought it as ironic that even when you give so much and risk everything for something, there is always a chance that you won't get anything. Sometimes you even lose all that you gave.
How can it be that the blessing of love is only given to only one in the supposedly 2 players in the game of love? Where is the fairness of that situation?
Maybe love is not governed by the rules of fairness. They say, "All is fair in love and war". So maybe it is also true with the lack of love.
I pity with the person in this song. The reality of fixed love destinies are hard to accept and sometimes cruel in the lesson. Wanting someone hard enough won't make her yours. You have to move on: anything more than a year (in the song it's 2 years. Should it even be this long?) is really wasting your time. Why? Because the world won't stop just to wait for you to heal. You have to heal while moving on with life.
Give a little of your heart only to those who'll trade it with some of their own. There is no such thing as unconditional love for us mortals. Unconditional love is ultimately divine. I think it is not something we humans are capable of.
...well, at least someday we'll know whether or not this is true. If this ever happens to me, I hope I'll have the strength and grace to take my own advice.
I was tagged by Wanie. The results are disconcerting as it is somewhat the same as what I think myself. Wanna be freaked out like me? Go here.
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. (As my friend Fazleen once said, "People have different dimensions." Maybe I am being too careful?)
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (I do like to think so)
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person. (Yes, but I do hope he's wearing a sign with blinking neon lights or something just so that I won't miss him :p )
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (Exactly!)
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. ( I have this dream of being a National Geographic photographer. I don't know if I'll ever have the guts to do it)
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (I think this is kinda true. Kinda)
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. (People often mistake this for indecision but actually when I want to do something, I'd do it. That's why I manage to shop for only 30 min when others take 2 hours!)
