Rasa rindu yang terlalu dalam.
Andai cuba dijengah, tak terjangkau dasarnya.
Yang terlihat cuma hitam pekat,
yang beraliran bersama kenangan.
Kehilangan yang kekal dan sukar diterima.
...
This lost is final. Incomprehensible.
The yearning to have ayah's presence again is constant, often hitting when least expected.
I am so sure that if Ayah is with us here, somehow the world won't feel so vast, so cruel.
But now, the stark reality of everything is a heavy burden on my heart. The heart has to be dragged everywhere..and everything sometimes feels unreal and distanced..inside I am feeling cold and inexpressibly alone
Allah..
