No fitting title.

I really want to take a break from everyone, everything.

Preferably for two weeks I can wipe out my existence, and just go where I want to go, do what I want to do, feel what I want to feel.

At this point of time, there is always other people butting in, or using their power to stop me.

Let me go. I'm already miles away from here..

But the thing is, I can't. Or i won't. Same thing. I won't because I can't change the status quo or break free from the ties that hold me down. I am too responsible for that. And I am not that spontaneous.

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I don't know if I can handle being "normal". Why they all think I want that, is beyond me.

I want to do so many things and I always thought I was meant for better things.

I always tell myself, "the world is my stage".

So whenever I see a dead end, I take a detour. Or make decisions that shake everyone expectations.

This is how I define normal: get a degree, find a decent job, get married, have kids. Then fall into a routine that goes like this: go to work each day to get as much as many as possible, then go home to spend that money, the next day repeat itself until we die.

But it looks like I am going to fall into this abyss of normality that I've always wanted to get away from. Kinda like a hamster on a wheel, working hard to get somewhere but in reality it is just trapped there in that beautiful cage.

haih...

oh well, you win some, you lose some.

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Oh, I really got to go to the beach. It'll give me perspective.