Don't overthink and just do it

Sometimes I overthink when praying for something I want real bad.
"Is this really supposed to be mine?"
"Is this the best for me?"
But then, just praying generally "I hope for the best in this life and the Hereafter" is not enough to satiate my soul.
I still want things. I still want attention. I still want everything that is mine and more.
Thus, the specific prayers.
But, specific is still not specific enough. It is still more specific than just the best in this life and the hereafter, but not to the extent of detailing every single thing.
I still believe wholeheartedly that Allah knows what is in our hearts, what is our weakness and sadness. So what we whisper in our hearts is also a form of prayer, because who are we whispering to if not to Allah?
He knows what we need, long before we even realize that we need it.
He knows what we want now, and only gives it to us when the time is right.
The funny thing is, sometimes we want things so bad, but then we easily forget about them. So sometimes we don't even realize that our prayers have been answered.
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I secretly suspect that some people wanted the world to end 21/12/12. But reflecting on how lightly we treat this prophecy, I was stunned by a FB status of a friend that more or less goes along the lines of, "Even if it isn't the end of the world, don't forget that it could be the end of your world."
So why mock the Mayans when there is pure evidence that we can drop dead at any time?
Yes, remembering that death is always with us is hard, because I also fail in this. When seeing this status baru terkejut.
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Lastly, approaching the end of this year, please settle as may as you can the whatever issues or questions that lies in your heart (a reminder to myself also). Time, if not destiny will sort everything out exactly in the way it should be in the end anyway. Enter the new year with as few carry-over problems as possible!