This is the problem...i keep thinking that if I had known, then all would be different. But i know it is wrong to think this way.
For all that is wrong now, I am thankful for some things:
1. We were all given the chance to try to turn things around. Eventhough sometimes I felt like I was at the foot of a mountain that I have to climb eventhough I know I may not reach the top...
2. I am thankful for knowing some wonderful people in this life that somehow helped in the search for a cure or as a source of comfort.
3. I am thankful that I am near my family during these times..and not far away as before.
4. I am thankful for a chance given by Allah now..and we would all be fools if we don't try everything in our power to face this.
5. I am thankful for such mature and strong brothers and sisters that are trying their best to be brave. I really love all of you..for all of you, I would try to be strong and never falter.

Most of all, I am thankful for my mother. Ma, I love you. Eventhough u don't even know that this blog exist, I am truly thankful to Allah to have someone like you as a mother.
We'll face this.
There is no other way.

During these hard times, it is more comforting to remember the things that u are thankful for rather than searching for the answers that you would never find.

Bersama-sama kesusahan, beriringan dengannya kesenangan.