Every man has his price?

Hari ini bersubahat dalam rasuah.
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Rasa hati susah dan tidak tenang.
Rasanya kalaulah aku mengenali Hamka, pasti kata-kata ini yang akan diucapkan, " Hati kamu belum merdeka. Mengapa mengkhianati kata hatimu sendiri?"

Aku percaya manusia itu fitrahnya adalah baik. Kalaulah dia jahat macam setan pun, jauh disudut hatinya dia sedar apa yang dilakukannya bukanlah sesuatu yang sesuai dengan fitrah roh seorang insan. Apa- apa perlakuan yang tidak elok, makruh atau haram pasti akan meninggalkan kesan pada jiwanya. Orang yang masih degil mahu menurut jalan yang bertentangan dengan kata hatinya, fitrahnya, pasti tidak akan tenang. Fikirannya tentu kucar-kacir.
Hati akan lebih berkecamuk andainya dia mempunyai ilmu tentang hukum perlakuannya itu.
Bukannya dia tak tau perbuatannya salah, dia tau.
Dan dia tidak akan tenang.

Peristiwa korup yang berlaku bukannya asing dalam masyarakat hari ini. Seringkali disalah anggap sebagai, "bertolak ansur" "win-win situation".
Bengong.
Lepas saja perkara itu berlalu, rasa tidak senang timbul dalam hati.

"Awak ada 2 pilihan: awak boleh turun bawah dan bayar rm50 atau kita selesaikan disini je tapi bayar rm20. Bukannya apa..sebagai pengajaran" katanya dengan senyuman sinis yang membengkakkan geram dalam hati.

Aku dan kawan-kawan saling berpandangan. Memekakkan telinga dengan hinaan dan kata-kata sinis oleh duo hero delusional SACC.
Bukannya tidak mampu bayar tapi ATM out of service. Tak cukup duit.
Tak perlulah alasan, tapi pada waktu dan ketika itu masing-masing rasa tersepit. Tak pernah menghadapi situasi sebegitu. Rasa macam penjenayah.
Maka kami mengumpulkan dua not merah untuk diberi pada dua buaya beruniform itu.
Semasa menghulurkan suapan haram itu Kak Nana berkata,

"Semoga berbahagia dengan duit tu."

Masuk sahaja dalam kereta, keempat-empat kami seakan-akan tiba-tiba hidup. Macam ada yang tekan "ON" pada kami yang tadinya "OFF" dan menurut saja flow kejahatan 'hero' duo tadi. Semuanya beri pendapat dan cadangan tentang bagaimana cara yang sepatutnya kami handle situation tadi.
Kami sepakat tentang beberapa perkara:

• Memang jelas kami bersalah (sape soh parking kat tempat cacat!!!!! ugh) dan taknak buat lagi dah...
• Pakcik itu tidak patut menghamburkan kata-kata sebegitu
• Sepatutnya kami turun dan bayar saja RM50 saman
• Sepatutnya kami bertanya nama 'hero' duo itu dan melaporkan kegiatan korup mereka
• Taknak terlibat dengan rasuah lagi
  

Ya, itulah yang patut dilakukan. Takpayah berurusan dengan orang-orang korup yang memikirkan senang memanipulasi gadis- gadis innocent.
After this, we know your game.
Next time, we will not lose.

What's the meaning of hard work?
What's the meaning of every breath, every drop of sweat, every wrinkle on your forehead, every silver hair on your head?
What does it all worth?

Reminiscing on the lives of successful people all over history, they all share one trait that sets them apart from other people: pure hard work. They all have the drive to go the extra mile, the willingness to sacrifice for the future, putting 100% in everything they do just so that they don't have to do it all over again. All to achieve their aim.
There is no place for mediocrity: no "takpe-lah" mentality, no "kejap-lah" excuses, no "redha" and "sabar" rationalization. All are pure things being twisted around for all the wrong reasons. Wake up! Be honest to yourself! The only one that could be held responsible is you, so you better run fast because nothing is going to stop for you.
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You want to be with somebody? Be worth it. Run after them, because there no chance in hell they'll wait for you. Earn your happiness. Take everyday as a chance to do better. Allah tells us to do everything in our power to attain strength, go to the moon if you're able to. So why are you sad of your own helplessness? Work hard! Achieve all you can!

I've said before that I think love is a blessing. If it is the best for you, then Allah will give it to you. It is disappointing when people tell you,

"Don't be too high, you'll be out of the league for anyone."

So shallow. What are you, still in the 16th century? It saddened me to know that these people think that a girl should stop working hard, stop achieving all she can just so that she could get a man. My question is, why is that man so slow? Why wouldn't he keep up? Why should anyone stop to wait for this person? That person is just slowing everybody down, tying us up in a fate that could be different.
Work hard guys!
Aren't you embarrassed to see how little of you are in the universities now? Such a shame. Such a waste.
So I think I won't waste my time anymore. I've decided that I would try everything in my power to achieve all that I can. What I am doing is not wrong. Allah is with me, I take comfort in that. When I am finally worthy of it, when it is indeed the right time, then Allah will bless me with love.
Maybe the one for me is not below me, but above me, so why do I need to stop?
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...what's with me and angry posts now? cool down, cool down...*sigh*
why do these people think we care for such trivial things like status, money and all material things?
Life is much, much more than that.
I don't care, but you do. And you want me to stop just because you can't keep up? So unfair.
When married, a woman is tying her fate to you. No parents to turn to. Just you. So if the person is not dependable, it is futile. A little stability is not something too great to ask for, it is not too much. The future is uncertain, but we can try to make it better by being prepared.
...or all these too much for you to handle? :(

p/s: "You" in this context does not refer to anyone. Just venting my frustration to the world.