Babbles

Re: Dramas

I can't stand TV dramas, especially those with love themes. They leave me with my head spinning and my heart felt like it has a part of it missing.

So I would really try to avoid watching them on my own, but if in the company of others then I can't do much.

I can't stand the over-sweetness!

Re: Weekday wreck

My weekdays feels like endless running around. I wake up, go to work, then go to my night classes, go back home to sleep and then wake up the next day to go to work again. Endless blur of events. All decisions made on the spot, several tasks in one go (I'm the worst multi-tasker) that I don't have time to gather my thoughts.

Sometimes, striving for the deadline I think I've forgotten how to laugh. Sometimes people laugh, I just don't get it! Maybe, it's because I'm so distracted. I wonder where did my laugh go? All I have left are automatic smiles. So I make it a point to smile as wide as possible, as sincere as possible, hoping for the sunshine in my smile would light up my heart. Point is, I try to be present. Just to give everything during the moment. Because that moment is all I have. Maybe, the next moment, I'll have to go and drown in work..further drifting away from everyone.

Re: A present for the future

I keep a present on my dashboard. A carelessly thrown on the dashboard cardboard box, tied with a thin brown rope, topped with a single pink flower and green leaf at the side. It's empty actually, as it is actually a door gift from my friend's wedding. I like to see it when driving, a nice diversion from the morning traffic jam or the end  of day rush hour. Somehow, it signals that there'll be a nice surprise for me in the future. It's just that I have to hold on for a bit more ;)

Bulatkan hati dan teruskan hidup

Terasa berat melangkah kaki,
Lama diam tegak berdiri,
Gunung yang tinggi hanya didaki,
Bukan pikul di pundak sendiri.

Maha berat terasa bebanan,
Angan sudah melangkau fikiran,
Mungkin angan hanya permainan,
Yang tak diperkenan takdir aturan.

Henti menjangka yang belum jadi,
Kudratmu kecil menongkah arus,
Baik serah ke Maha Abadi,
Asal meniti dijalan lurus.

Perkiraanku henti disini,
Tekad melangkah terus kedepan,
Biar apa akanku depani,
Itulah jua Tuhan izinkan.

~Nur_aqli, 2019

Doa Rasulullah s.a.w ketika gagal memasuki Kota Taif

Ya Allah,
Aku mengadukan kepada-Mu lemahnya kekuatan diriku,
sangat terbatasnya kecerdasanku dan kehinaan diriku atas manusia,
dengan rahmat Engkau, Ya Allah,
Tuhan pemelihara sekalian alam.
Engkaulah pemelihara sekalian orang-orang dhaif,
Engkaulah Tuhanku.
Kepada siapakah Engkau menyerahkan aku?
Kepada orang asing yang mengusir aku,
Atau kepada musuh yang menguasai urusanku?
Tetapi meskipun demikian aku redha,
Asal saja Engkau tidak memurkai aku.
Kemaafan-Mu lebih besar dari dosaku,
Aku meminta dengan Nur Zat-Mu yang menerangi semua kegelapan,
Dan dengan-Nya menjadi baik segala urusan dunia dan akhirat,
Semoga aku tidak tertimpa kemurkaan-Mu dan azab-Mu.
BagiMu sumber keredhaan,
Sehingga Engkau meredhai aku.
Tidak ada daya dan kekuatan hanya dengan Engkau