Dugaan Nya

Dugaan Nya by Hujan

Bapanya mahukannya jadi seorang askar,
bukan cita-citanya,
bukan impiannya.

Dia terlalu muda tuk tinggalkan keluarga,
bila tiba masanya,
pilu mula terasa.

Berkecamuk hati,hatinya sendiri,
persoalannya kini,sampai bila mampu ku bertahan,
mampukah ku bertahan?

wowo,
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.
wowo,
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.

Beginikah selalunya cinta,
diakhiri sengsara,
setelah dicurahkan semua.

Cuba ku dalami,
sampai termimpi mimpi,
namun apa yang ku jumpa,
semuanya sama.

Berkecamuk hati,hatinya sendiri,
persoalannya kini,sampai bila mampu ku bertahan,
mampukah ku bertahan?

wowo,
nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.
wowo,
nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku,
wowo,
diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.

Ini semua dugaan Nya,(2X)

This is currently my fav song. I can identify with the guy in this song...
Can I hold on much longer? coz right now, letting go seem to be more and more desirable...
Sometimes being strong is soooooo tiring.
It's good to know that when we let go, there's something waiting for us at the bottom to break the fall. Coz if there is nothing there, I would fall hard on my face and never get up again.
Imagine, pieces of my brain laced with fresh red blood lying everywhere...gory sight.
So I better not let go.
Hold on!
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Why does lately my posts depict love?
Coz I'm losing faith in it.
So, to restore the faith, I have to remind myself that love is bigger than all of us put together.
If you hope for love, ask from the One that owns love.
The problem is that we keep asking from people things that they could never give.
Ask from the One that has it all.
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Yesterday I watched a Korean movie, "Old maid diaries"
[as opposed to the princess diaries..hehe]
Seriously, I fear that there may be a chance that I could end up like the heroine...an old maid.
Coz what happened to her keep happening to me too.

Beginikah selalunya cinta,
diakhiri sengsara,
setelah dicurahkan semua.

Cuba ku dalami,
sampai termimpi mimpi,
namun apa yang ku jumpa,
semuanya sama.

All are the same...no different.
Doesn't matter...

Ini semua dugaan Nya

This is what I believe.
Yeah, I know, stupid for wanting something like this.
Yeah, I know, you'll only tell me that it is only natural..part of being a person.
But I don't want to want something that I can never have. Got to get a grip.
Reality is all me.
....(however, the ground seem unreal sometimes)

Pergilah perasaan
Tinggalkan tubuhku kosong
bagai angkasa yang tiada berudara...

I leave you with that to ponder.