Thursday, July 05, 2012

bits and pieces

Salam and hi.
Before anything, if anyone misses me, I just want to say I miss you too.
(And if you love me and actually tell me, then maybe I love you too) <== pernyataan penuh disclaimer :p

I've been meaning to write a note or two, but it seems like all of it are stories with grey connotations: sad, weary, angry, hopelessness, frustrations...but it isn't really the whole kaleidoscope of my life. There are no abundance of grey in any particular moment. This is only due to the simple reason that I write when an over rush of feelings overwhelm me or I got a sudden inspiration.

So this probably mean that I can't support myself by writing. Ala..and I was just considering to leave science..

A bit on career:
I'm scarred. Don't think I'll ever get over the trauma. People don't like to hear anything about it, they just tell you to put in away in the past where it belongs. But they don't understand, it is like a ghost. Following you around with an axe behind your neck. All the while you're trying hard to forget the old frosty feeling of cold hard steel of the blade.
Move on is what I got to do and steel my heart from the frantic desire to run and hide under the table every time I remembered the thundering past.
Remember that everything lies within the will of Allah swt. People can stop you all they want, but not all who soar needs the wings to fly.

A bit about love:
If ever I find you, at the right time to find you, I hope it is the right time you find me too. I want to remind myself to scold you for being so late and letting me go through all of those things, just to get to you. After that, you can do the same to me. Then we'll compare notes: at which point in time that our paths probably crossed but you and I both were not ready to find each other yet? What were you doing? What was I doing? Then we'll laugh it off, feeling completely contented and warm in heart with the realization that finally, it was fated to happen. Alhamdulillah.

That is all for now. See you later.

3 comments:

hobbit1964 said...

We're not all going to be Steinbecks or Brontes. But do not despair. Have you seen the people whose blogs have more than a thousand followers? And yet you feel that you do better writing do you not? Therefore, the degree of employability you see in yourself may not be the litmus evidence of how you will fare as a writer in the days to come.
And why ever not impart some of the flair you have into scientific writing? Can that not be your contribution that all who learn see it with awe, reverence and fondness, if that be the vein in which you write?
Be not hasty while you are being tempered upon the anvil, as in your expedience to enter the foray of instruments and utensils you may find that you have not gained your intended sharpness.

shasha said...

I love u too!!hahaha. nway pray in front of Kaabah that i will meet my jodoh very soon because im too tired and traumatized of meeting the wrong ones...

Ice Rose Princess said...

Dear hobbit1964, yea, I guess you're right. I tried to do some scientific writing but just cant get it done yet. Kne lebih pengurusan masa ni ;)

Shasha
You know I love u too right? ;) InsyaAllah, everything that happens is truly for the best if we consider the whole picture.