Lemonade life

He had noticed that events were cowards: they didn't occur singly, but instead they would run in packs and leap out at him all at once ~Neil Gaiman

Since I've made my two resolutions for my birthday (1. to be more grateful and patient 2. to be more open hearted), it seems like the whole world has ganged up on me to solely make me fail.

So many things, until the insignificance of me, how helpless I am in the chain of events that unfold become so clear to me. Feeling small in a big bad world.

But it doesn't matter. I tell myself that each and every time a thought or event that threaten the heart comes. Love, Life, Career..everything. But at least the future holds promise, of what I don't know. I just have this unending hope that it will all be better. It is just something we all have to wade through, right? The tribulations of life is what you signed up for when you agreed to this existence. You are your choices, you are your dreams: all these motto sometimes don't make sense and sometimes they make perfect sense. A paradox of sorts.

But you can't say you haven't been warned:

Or do ye think that ye shall enter the Garden (of bliss) without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? they encountered suffering and adversity, and were so shaken in spirit that even the Messenger and those of faith who were with him cried: "When (will come) the help of Allah." Ah! Verily, the help of Allah is (always) near

Adakah patut kamu menyangka bahawa kamu akan masuk syurga, padahal belum sampai kepada kamu (ujian dan cubaan) seperti yang telah berlaku kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kamu? Mereka telah ditimpa kepapaan (kemusnahan harta benda) dan serangan penyakit, serta digoncangkan (oleh ancaman bahaya musuh), sehingga berkatalah Rasul dan orang-orang yang beriman yang ada besertanya: "Bilakah (datangnya) pertolongan Allah?" Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah itu dekat (asalkan kamu bersabar dan berpegang teguh kepada agama Allah)

~al-Baqarah, 214

And another thing to slowly bring us to acceptance and the desire to face everything head on:

Ya Allah,

saya mengadukan kepada-Mu lemahnya kekuatan diriku,

sangat terbatasnya kecerdasanku dan kehinaan diriku atas manusia,

dengan rahmat Engkau, Ya Allah,

Tuhan pemelihara sekalian alam.

Engkaulah pemelihara sekalian orang-orang dhaif,

Engkaulah Tuhanku.

Kepada siapakah Engkau menyerahkan aku?

Kepada orang asing yang mengusir aku,

Atau kepada musuh yang menguasai urusanku?

Tetapi meskipun demikian saya redha,

Asal saja Engkau tidak memurkai aku.

Kemaafan-Mu lebih besar dari dosaku,

Saya meminta dengan Nur Zat-Mu yang menerangi semua kegelapan,

Dan dengan-Nya menjadi baik segala urusan dunia dan akhirat,

Semoga aku tidak tertimpa kemurkaan-Mu dan azab-Mu.

Bagimu sumber keredhaan,

Sehingga Engkau meredhai aku.

Tidak ada daya dan kekuatan hanya dengan Engkau

Someone once said that if life give you lemons, make lemonade. We just have to make the best with the bare minimum that we have I guess.

As always, la haula wala quwwata illa billahil 'aliyyil adzim